The when i grow up dream

The sound of my alarm at 7am every morning is a signal of the begining of my 15 hour long day.The grin on my face as soon as i open my eyes is because of my daughter whose reason it is i go and congregate at the office to pretend i love what i do when infact,its its the last day of the month i look forwad to more than anything else.I don't mind coz its all for a cause,a good one.My intention however is not to be Rupert Murdoch or Richard Branson but i like to tell myself that people like me have to work for the things that we want.So,for those close to my heart,i do it for them.Call me whatever you like,selfless or provider,i fit the bill.I work, and i work really hard.

You may have heard the phrase "behind every successful man theres a bla bla bla...",well,lets just say that the woman who said "i do" does take a fair share of the credit here.I come home to a clean house,well cooked dinner,my daughter jumping up and down as if shes been on a happy-pill,clothes clean and ironed and most significant,even the finances put in order.I'd be stupid not to finish the sentence as follows,"i work really hard b'coz of the woman in my life".

Don't hate on me coz this isn't a dig at you for being single,gay or straight.Its not to point out what you're missing either.I think if you have something good going on in your life,its highly likely that another thing won't be going as good,can't have it all.

Thats why it hurts me now coz growing up i used to dream big.I never gave the common answer,Policeman or Fireman when i get asked the classic question,"what do you wanna be when you grow up"?Instead i chose to shut up coz the young little mind i had could not explain the maginitude of the dreams i had.

I drew inspiration from my old man to whom am a reflection,persistant,goal-getter,wounded,black and handsome.He like many old folks in their growing up days,set himself goals which he archieved,fulfilled his ambitions and took the time to sit back and say " i did it".

Thats what the difference is.I can only console myself that am stil young and i have plenty of time to reach my pinacle.True to fact,but time is running out,so is the dream.Am busy working really hard to increase my pay cheque but in doing so i have forgotten to follow the dream that defines who i am and what i believe in.